tired.

having six hours of sleep, a paper due tomorrow on the day of a HUGE test, and not being able to do anything productive is a slight problem. Another slight problem of mine is doing vlogs and blogs. I literally cant keep my eyes open or force myself to sit at a computer long enough to do anything of quality. Pathetic i know but hey its sort of working out for me so far. a positive thing is i don't have my morning class tomorrow so i will be cramming for everything else.

personal life has been compromised for the past 21 years due to school, softball, and other constraining factors, but esp in the past week. instead of going out with friends like i planned, i fell asleep before we went out and slept for the next 8 hours. there goes that opportunity to dance with said cute boy. i am slowly but surely fixing the situation to a positive one, i hope anyways. i really want a small miralce. yes curing cancer or ending world hunger would be great, but i really want him to like me back.

the last sentence was very selfish, shallow, and completely 100% human girly.

this is hard.

I've done VEDA except for one day which for me is an amazing talent in and of itself. however, these videos have been rough, but i plan to shot a better version of a video soon. im doing veda mainly for me, but maybe for others to see one day. also ive failed at updating this thing bc of said video making, but fear not im still me and am better at writing when im half asleep.

whats been going on with me you say? i didnt get my newest crush in my group but its ok, i'm going to be trying to talk to him more often. and he plays in a softball league so ill be wathcing. i want to have high hopes for this but in the end who knows if it will work out? who really knows all about this. why do humans worry so much. but right now im content with being ALMOST a good friend.

taylor swift has been on replay on my itunes lately, i love her music.

Blog really frequently in April.

I've always wanted to do BEDA or VEDA, but I'm extremely busy. Like nobody's business busy. So this year I'm going to try to combine the two. I'll do a video every time I can and blog whenever i can't video, which might be often since I'll be on the road playing sports every weekend. So things are busy but hey its April and its time to let the internet know all about me.

<3

ps. ive had some profound things from this blog and hopefully they'll be more.